5 Reasons Why I Write…

Why write?… “We write to make suffering endurable, evil intelligible, justice desirable and love possible… But the most important is love. That after all the suffering, all the injustice, all the evil that one sees in the world, if you can rise above it and make it beautiful, and thus lovable then that’s worth a life” — Roger Rosenblatt

For some reason I have been thinking about this lately- Why do I write?  I think the answer to this will be evolving, but for why I started writing here are 5 reasons…

1. I write because they won’t shut-up.  I remember writing stories when I was a kid and years later had ideas and thoughts of grandeur about someday writing a book. However, and unfortunately, due to some “distractions” in my life I gave up (willfully or perhaps not) the hope and dream of writing fiction.  Always in the back of mind was a whisper, a tendril, a thread of desire to write- to create; it nagged to be released from the cage that I had locked it in.  Now that I have unleashed it and allowed it freedom, it is constantly on my mind.  I hear the voices of my characters randomly throughout the day (and night) whispering to me how they would respond, interact with other characters, where they are headed next, etc.  Yes, I realize that are clinical definitions for people who “hear the voices”, but among my peers we are called writers.  I have given them life through writing and they are not willing to be quieted until their story is told.

2. I write because I read. The reasons I write are similar to the reasons I read.  I started reading fiction again after years of putting it up on a shelf (yes, both literally and figuratively) as circumstances in my life started getting more stressful and to be honest, I needed an escape.  That’s what I found once again in fiction.  I was able to flee into someone else’s life: to be apart of a new adventure each time I opened a new book, to meet new friends, to be the heroine, to be in control of my destiny when IRL I felt at a loss, to fall in love all over again with the hero (please note that I have my very own IRL hero that I fall in love with more and more everyday), to slay the bad guys and to gain the victory, and to travel not only all over the world but also to discover other dimensions, realms, and new worlds.

3. I write for others. For all those same reasons I read, I write with a hope for the future opportunity to be able to share with others.  I hope to be able to provide for others what books have provided for me.  Not only escape, but also the chance to experience life with all it’s challenges, losses, fears, hopes, dreams, and most importantly love through the eyes of others.

4. I write for me. Now in my early 30’s, I find I am finally discovering more of who I am and becoming more confident in myself as an adult.  I write for me.  I find more of myself each time I write, discovering and growing into the woman I am trying to be.  I write for me because I need a creative outlet.  Sometimes, I find that if I’m struggling with trying figure out something in my real life it will come to me when my character is trying to sort through something and vice a versa.  Writing has become a part of me, changed me and continually causes me to grow.  I write for me because I LOVE it.

5. I write because above all else, I have a story to tell.


DAY 1!!

Day 1 of NaNoWriMo has now come and gone, well for me it has.  I am done for the day.  My day did not go how I thought it would but surprisingly when I had the chance to write, the words were flowing.  I met my goal and exceeded it!  I know there will possibly be days when I am not able to, for whatever reason, meet my goal so I am trying to build a bit of a word buffer when I can.  I am exhausted and headed to bed.  I will not bore you with updates from every day, but will pop in sporadically with a few tidbits from the story and word counts.



Have I lost my mind?! YES.  Because of course I have extra time between chasing my 15month daughter around, settling into our new place, making some money, and working on my current WIP to add an intense national online writer’s challenge to finish a 50,000 word novel over 30 days.  Why not? Unfortunately, you are not allowed to continue working on something you have already started; however, fortunately, for me I have had an additional idea bouncing around in my head and this will be a great opportunity for me to flesh it out and see if it takes shape.

So NaNoWriMo here I come.  I have never done this before.  I looked into it last year, but we were in the middle of moving across country so I didn’t think it was a convenient time, but when is right? 😉 So this is it! I’m going to go for it and hope to God, that I can finish or at least give it a decent go.

So, I’m beginning to plot.  I’ve got my new notebook dedicated for this story (I like to have a notebook for each story to make random notes and ideas, keep track of characters, plot and setting notes, etc. – I also just read a post from the Paperback Writer blog on her notebook style inspiring me with further organization.)  I’ve got my main characters sketched out and the story is taking shape in my head.  I tend to be a “panster” (one who flys by the seat-of-her pants) and wing it, but I also like to do a little planning so I have an idea of where I’m going at least.  I have tried since high school- probably even earlier than that- to be organized and write by outline and plot points, but to no avail.  I tend to work best off of a title or a main character.  I don’t know why, just the way my brain works.

So for now, my story involves: a boy and a girl, magic of sorts, fight or flight, loss and love.  Young adult urban fantasy.  What more could you want, right?!

Stay tuned…

PS, if you too are a NaNoWriMo participant this year, come find me!  My username is Mjmayze

Off to Write…

After a month of not writing, I am finally sitting down to write on my WIP… and yes, I am apparently writing on my blog and not the said WIP.  It is taking me some time to get my brain back in gear.  After moving and trying to get settled back in town (we just moved back to my hometown in WA after first of all, having moved to Nashville for 6 months and then moving back to WA and living at the lake for the summer) and finding jobs to make actual money my brain had gone on hiatus.  Now, it is time to get back in creative mode, I feel it inside in my bones (or somewhere deep) tugging at the back of my mind; my characters yearning to have voice and personification through my hand.  I need to give them life. I need to create.  All that said, and desire aside, I am finding it overwhelming to actually focus and put pen to paper.  I know once I can just make it happen, words will ultimately flow – maybe not this time, but soon if I keep at it.  My husband is the best there is and he is so supportive of my own dreams and goals and encourages me with words like: “Go write something Great!”  No pressure.

So here I sit in Border’s cafe writing this short blog trying to get the juices flowing… So flow words flow!  I know it’s in me somewhere, I just have to find the right fissure of content to break open.  Write something GREAT!!

Goals 2010

So I was cleaning out my “Draft” folder and realized I never actually posted the following little bit and it was a good reminder to me (even though the year is almost at it’s end) the goals and ideas I had for myself at the beginning of this year.  So much has changed this year, but these are still my underlying goals (ok, so obviously the blogging goal didn’t go so good but I’ll keep trying) so I thought it would still be a good idea to post it:

Every time I sit down to write goals, I find myself getting overwhelmed trying to get too detailed or too ambitious or too realistic (granted there is a place to think big beyond what you think is possible and realistic, a place to get detailed down to the nitty gritty to make a step by step plan, and a place to be practical and realistic to your lifestyle and available time).  This time, in order to get pen to paper so to speak, I’m just going to bullet-point the goals I want to focus on for this year.  Disclaimer: these goals are subject to change, to be added to or altered, as I continue to think about them.

My “One Little Word” I chose for a theme word to focus on when I’m feeling devoid of inspiration and needing a focus is CREATE.

  • Write  1500 words/day or more
  • Finish my novel
  • Balance being momma, wife, and writer
  • Blog 2x a week