Moving on…

If you have been following these posts, thank you! I have been extremely focused on finishing my novel and working on revisions and edits for the last several months. It’s almost ready!! YAY! I plan on self-publishing in early 2013 (more on that to come). 

Unfortunately, my time here with WordPress is going to end. I’m not the most savvy with techy stuff (’nuff said? lol) and WP is not the most user friendly and has not allowed me to add the widgets and fun flashy things that wanted to. 😦 Our relationship has been a bit of a rocky one and I need a change 😉 So I am moving on…

In light of my new book, a new year, etc. I will be starting a new blog with Blogger. I’d love it if you wanted to “Friend” me over there. I plan on that being where I stay for quite some time 🙂 

I hope to see you there!


Thank you! Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!!



Quick Hello!

Just dropping in for a quick Hello! I have been working on revisions for my current WIP (work in progress) and I am hoping to be finished with those by the end of November. I have new updates and things to share since I’ve been here last and will get to that hopefully soon. But until then, I just wanted to say “Hello”.

Farewell My Friend

“All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another”.  ~Anatole France

In life there is love and loss, but with loss comes the opportunity for something new to love… I however, am not quite to that stage in my “grief”. Today, I am feeling the beginnings of loss. I know that some may not understand my heartache, but if you’ve ever had a special place that has intigrated itself into the very fibers of your being, has become a part of you, and has helped you to grow into who you are becoming then you know what I am feeling.

For me, this place is my local Borders and specifically the very cafe that I am sitting at present for what may be the last time.

Now, I know it’s just a building and just a business, and there are other book stores out there, but to me it has been so much more over the years. It has been my refuge, my escape, my battlefield, my inspiration, my challenger, my friend.

It all began several years ago, when my love affair with reading was rekindled and I discovered the stacks anew. Countless hours spent -and in all honesty, probably countless dollars too *shh don’t tell hubby* ;)- browsing the different genres, learning where all the titles of my new favorite authors rested waiting for me to find them. Imagination, fantasy, and creativity infused new life deep into my soul. For years I struggled lacking the proper creative outlet for me allowing a dormancy to take root, but Borders on it’s white stallion charged in trampling it, letting the seedlings of creativity grow.

*dramatic much?* Sigh. Today I’m feeling especially dramatic and sentimental. Don’t they know? I DON’T DEAL WITH CHANGE WELL! I’m one of those “slow to process big change” people. Borders has been with me from the very beginning of not only my reading rebirth, but my writing journey. I have a favorite spot in the cafe that my muse shows up with fresh inspiration as I gaze out at all the stacks of all those that have gone before me in this journey. All the imagination! The creativity! The realized dreams! – staring right back at me, willing me to keep going, to keep writing, to keep following my dream.

Borders has not only been my safe haven for all the words in my head to find freedom, but it holds social sentiments as well. I have made friends here- the staff all know me and the baristas know my name and my drink (which who doesn’t love that?)- I met a special writer friend here who has been a point of inspiration and motivation for me (you know who you are 😉 It is also the place my mom, my daughter and I go to spend time together. I have been bringing my daughter here since she was tiny (granted she’s only 2). When we drive by she yells from her car seat kicking her feet in excitment, “Book store?” She loves to run up and down the isles and have her “special drink” in the cafe with Grammy. She LOVES to read- girl after my own heart!

Now where will I go? My muse is stubborn, I’ll have to begin coaxing her off the ledge of despair into a hope that there is another place she can flourish and be free. I know… dramatic. Her, of course, not little ol’ me 😉

So to the Borders of Northpointe Shopping Center, Thank You and Goodbye.

“Change always comes bearing gifts.”  ~Price Pritchett

I was partially inspired to write this after reading Christina Katz’ post on her Borders memories- give it a read!

What about you? Do you have any Borders memories to share?

Writing Update…

I had major goals for having my rough draft completed by April 1st and was shooting for approximately 75K words.  Unfortunately, I didn’t finish my rough draft; however, I did break 75K!  So I guess, technically I partially met my goal 🙂 My story just happened to expand and is taking me longer than I had anticipated to reach the end (or at least the end for this first book) so I can’t be disappointed in that.

New goal is roughly 80-85K and hoping to reach that by April 15th… so off to writing I go!


NaNo Fail

November has come and gone like a blur of motion.  November 1st went off like a shot fired at the commencement for the NaNoWriMo challenge to write 50K words in 30 days.  I was excited and even a bit prepared having spent some time pre-NaNo developing my main characters and plotting my… well, my plot (pun not intended ;).  I jumped in with both feet and starting accruing word count totals that gave us all tingly little feelings to go log in on the NaNo website to post our new totals for each day.  For me, life crept in and subtly started stealing my time more and more like having some jobs that make money come up (which um kind of a necessity), then the baby got sick (and clingy), then mom (me) and dad were fighting the dreaded soar throat and runny nose that so many seemed to be contending, then my sister and fam from out of town came in for the week of Thanksgiving…. Yes, yes I know these are all excuses, valid or not.  Could I have made more time for writing?  Sure if I wanted to stay up most nights and then get up at 530 with the toddler (bc that’s when she was getting up while sick), but to be honest I was just wiped out by the end of the day and I just didn’t want to.  There it is, honesty… After all is said and done, I just wasn’t feeling it.  Oh, I felt guilty about it alright, even frustrated and then disappointed, but once I was honest with myself and decided that it was ok for me to focus on my family and the things that we were going through, I felt (dare I say it…) relieved.

So did I finish NaNoWriMo?  Do I really need to answer that?  NO, I didn’t finish and I am disappointed, but I did learn some positive things about myself and I got a good start on a new novel that I actually like and will continue to work on.

What did I learn, you ask?

1. Some good character development techniques as I prepared

2. If I actually sit down to write somewhat consistently, even if I didn’t begin with ideas, words eventually begin to flow hopefully into something cohesive and interesting.

3. Some techniques about how to write fight scenes with swords, knives, etc. from a class I took via other NaNo’s in my area.

4. I became a part of a large community of like-minded or at least like-goaled people.

5. If I can set aside time to write at least 2k words a day I really could finish my novel in a timely manner, and I actually think I could given the time.

6. I got to give back to help literacy and writing programs through the book drive that NaNoWriMo supported.

That’s all I got for now.  Will I attempt to do it again next year? I’m not sure but I think so.


Have I lost my mind?! YES.  Because of course I have extra time between chasing my 15month daughter around, settling into our new place, making some money, and working on my current WIP to add an intense national online writer’s challenge to finish a 50,000 word novel over 30 days.  Why not? Unfortunately, you are not allowed to continue working on something you have already started; however, fortunately, for me I have had an additional idea bouncing around in my head and this will be a great opportunity for me to flesh it out and see if it takes shape.

So NaNoWriMo here I come.  I have never done this before.  I looked into it last year, but we were in the middle of moving across country so I didn’t think it was a convenient time, but when is right? 😉 So this is it! I’m going to go for it and hope to God, that I can finish or at least give it a decent go.

So, I’m beginning to plot.  I’ve got my new notebook dedicated for this story (I like to have a notebook for each story to make random notes and ideas, keep track of characters, plot and setting notes, etc. – I also just read a post from the Paperback Writer blog on her notebook style inspiring me with further organization.)  I’ve got my main characters sketched out and the story is taking shape in my head.  I tend to be a “panster” (one who flys by the seat-of-her pants) and wing it, but I also like to do a little planning so I have an idea of where I’m going at least.  I have tried since high school- probably even earlier than that- to be organized and write by outline and plot points, but to no avail.  I tend to work best off of a title or a main character.  I don’t know why, just the way my brain works.

So for now, my story involves: a boy and a girl, magic of sorts, fight or flight, loss and love.  Young adult urban fantasy.  What more could you want, right?!

Stay tuned…

PS, if you too are a NaNoWriMo participant this year, come find me!  My username is Mjmayze